Mood: guilty

Today is the most horrible day of the year so far! So many ugly things happened just in one day. I have no idea why but it just wasn't a right day for the few of us (manda, bayn, friendly, carmen n me) as far as i know la. Manda was well, scolded and humiliated by teacher today in front of 2 classes. It was so bad! If it was me, i would have dug a hole and just stay there and pray i wun see the teacher ever again. But aiyo manda ah. You shd speak up to her. Cos you got listen mah, show her the notes you were taking down about what she had said. Sit at the side, really difficult to see one sia. She's a good teacher, lucky not poh. hehe.

Friendly everytime bmic lab she become short-circuited one la. Haha, dunno y leh. Aiyo!

For me. Gave teacher a bad impression. During lab today, we were supposed to fill in and hand up last week's lab report. Me being a blur sotong, dunno what the teacher wants, didn't know that must take back our experiments from the front bench and count then fill it in. So i asked friendly, kiwi n carmen. All say dunno dunno. Then manda is lyk still bothered about what happened so i didn't disturb her. So we 3 decided to just fill in any particular number.

Guess what? The teacher was actually standing there. He was watching and listening to our conversation. Omg! How could this kinda things ever happen man. He was so damn pissed about this. He scolded us (me in particular) about INTEGRITY. I was so shocked! He was a very very good teacher and we liked him the most. Being scolded by him and leaving him a bad impression about me. Omg. Electric shock of 3000 volts!! I felt very bad and guilty about it. I didn't dare to look at him after that. So at the end of the lab session, as i was packing my bag, i wanted so much to apologise to him. But i was still very very scared cos he just totally lost his temper at him! But in the end, i finally found enough courage to look at him at apologised twice to him. I said i didn't actually know we were supposed to get back our culture from the front (Which is the truth). So he said, ya, u are supposed to do that. And he said nvm. (Think he accepted my apology?) I hope he really does 4give me for that. I am really very guilty about this.

Then in the toilet, friendly said to me, 'haha, michelle kena caught'. Aiyo! Was a bit pissed ah, cos the whole idea not mine entirely leh. But, it really is my fault for being so so blur in lab. Last week's lab we didn't do it properly and finish everything. Cos really dunno what to do. And kiwi is lyk aiya, the usual him la, disturb ppl and everything. Was very tired during last week's lab session. Then in the end, we shared a result with carmen's group. Cos we did the last thing together.

Then today's lab, got communication break-down. Nvr discuss properly then everyone started doing the lab. Then end up 2 do the same thing. Aiyo, communications. So crucial. In everything that we do! Sometimes i do get a little fed-up by my friends during lab session. Some people become very self-fish. Dun wan to share equipments esp. I have seen this situation for the past 3 lab sessions. Happening to my grp la, from someone. Am rather pissed about this. It's not i purposely wan to have any grudge against this person. But a lot of his actions sometyms really pissed me. Then another person banged into me for the 2nd time oready! Same person, very irritated by her. While some become very PMS. It's super tiring la i know also, 3 hours of continuous work. But everyone's enduring that ma, not u and u alone. So must spare a tot also la. Haha. So ya.. Lyk dat lo.