just now i read an article on the newspaper
it's about this china vendors
making 4 russian models do some promoting for his stuffs
so it goes sth lyk
the 4 girls had blank paper stuck on their butt
n they were supposed to lyk lie on their hands n knees with their butt uplifted
then 4 "lucky" guys will have the chance to write chun lian on the paper stuck on the butt
using a chaligraphy brush pen via their mouth
lyk wtf loh
when i read this
apparently the models felt very insulted n cried
but they still have to follow instructions
then someone commented abt
treating the girls as toy, it's soo disrespcetful to them

really f-ed up loh
it's lyk....
men can always do whatever they lyk to a women
i hate the word toy lah
toy yr head lah
u want then play with it
u dun wan then put aside
old already not nice, or got other new toys
u discard away
throw them out lyk nobody's business
i feel insulted if ppl were to use tt word on me

ok since im on this topic
might as well draw up a list of words i hate...

1. toy
as explained above

2. rape
rape is horrible
rape is a crime
forced
victim
it's wrong
it's painful
it's scary
it's humiliating
it's unclean
and somehow i'll link it to gang rape or sth

3. expectation
what is expectation?
what to really expect?
do we get what we always expected to get?
no....
so what is the point of expecting sth right?
a goal to look 4ward to maybe..
but with every expectations, there comes disappointment
no expectations, no satisfaction

4. me myself and i
this is soo self fish
the world doesnt revolve around u and u alone
some ppl are really just soo damn bloody idiotic

5. promise
i dunno wad to say about this word
every promise u make = breaking every promise?
or making promises = fulfiling yr promises?
u dun promise easily
cos fulfilling yr promises dun come easy
so just shut yr mouth if u cannot guarantee to keep the promise u made
it's empty promises
and i think ppl who make empty promises shd wake up and get a life

okay some how my brain cant find up more words
i swear got a few more......
nvm back to my report bah

HAI
i think it's cos of the stupid dream i had earlier today
f man
seriously
spoil my day

anyway on a lighter note, it's just 1 week and 4 more days to go
hopefully i can get back to lab or sth
my proj is stuck
im very vexed
im very scared
it affects me a lot
cos i really dunno wad am i doing at work
seriously
just staring at him?!?

sry ya'll gotta read my complains n all
but omg
today just sucks big time
i nvr wanna relive it again